There are many things that are making me smile currently:

- Communication with my partners.
- I seem to be the go-to person at work now for research.
- Work finds value in my skills of proofreading and desktop publishing.
- Listening to a lot of J-pop.
- Webcrafting again. Yay!
- Kitten and I are constantly evolving in our relationship.

When Your Mind's Made Up

"When Your Mind's Made Up" - The Swell Season

So, if you ever want something
And you call, call
Then I'll come running
To fight, and I'll be at your door
When there's nothing worth running for

When your mind's made up
When your mind's made up
There's no point trying to change it
When your mind's made up
When your mind's made up
There's no point trying to stop it

You see, you're just like everyone
When the shit falls all you want to do is run, away
And hide all by yourself
When you're far from me, there's nothing else

When your mind's made up
When your mind's made up
There's no point trying to change it
When your mind's made up
When your mind's made up
There's no point even talking
When your mind's made up
When your mind's made up
There's no point trying to fight it

So, if you ever want something
And you call, call
Then I'll come running

Falling

Falling further down the rabbit hole,
And I don't know how deep it goes.
All I know is this falling feels like flying
And it frees my soul and is euphoric.
I'm scared of falling fast
And hitting rock bottom,
But, perhaps I never will;
Perhaps I will keep falling forever
With only a rope to slow me
So I can savor each moment,
Drink it deep as water.
Perhaps I'm not falling down,
But falling up into the Black
That goes on forever and limitless,
Boundless Space that is the definition of
Freedom.
To Love and Be Loved.

...I originally wrote this back on January 16, 2010, but figure it applies now. Originally posted here: http://samiitiger.livejournal.com/1609585.html

For me, MFF is over. I spent the con running a hectic schedule, but it was nonetheless enjoyable.

I have a lot of processing to do yet, but I love my partners. They teamed up while I was at work on Saturday and commissioned an artist for the picture below of our fursonas. Kitten hugging me while Echo noms on my ear with Cait chasing after a ball of yarn and Tybis begrudgingly standing off to the side. I'm just in a place of happy with loved ones.



They presented it to me on Sunday, and it makes me feel happy, loved, and appreciated every time I look at it.

Compersion

Now that I've had more than an hour of sleep, I am hit this morning with a delightful wave of emotion. Between play last night where Kitten and I co-topped a friend, being gently forced to sleep after I came down from Topping by Kitten and my foxboy, and simply waking up next to my fiancee and surrounded by people whom I share some level of mutual affection with, I don't care that I have to work today. While I'm hoping that I get out far earlier than originally scheduled, I'll roll with this.

Sitting here in the dark, listening to quiet snores, I feel very much at peace with myself and the world around me, and in love to some degree with each of the people in my room. To me, this is the definition of poly. Loving multiple people at the same time in their own ways and having each of those individual loves multiply and increase the bonds of the others. Appreciating and caring for each individual separately and as part of the bigger whole.

Cannonball

I'm tied to music in a way that most people are tied to poetry or sights or sounds. Music is wonderful for expressing how I feel. So, have a song that showed up in my past that kinda-sorta applies now.

"Cannonball" - Damien Rice


Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on

There's still a little bit of your ghost, your witness
Still a little bit of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer each day
That I can't say what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love, it taught me to lie
Life, it taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball

There’s still a little bit of your song in my ear
There’s still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer to me
So close that I can't see what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love, it taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon

Stones taught me to fly
Love, it taught me to cry
So come on courage, teach me to be shy
'Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't want to scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know

Keep on Running

There's a lot going on in life right now that I'm not entirely sure where to start.

I think we'll start with my recent crush since that's pretty prevalent in my life at the moment. I'll preface this by saying that I am very much in the throes of NRE (New Relationship Energy) and I recognize it for what it's worth. But I'm really digging this guy that I'm talking with. It's been a very pleasant 3 weeks of text-chatting and flirting, and he stayed the night with Kitten and I last Saturday after our party. 'Twas very, very nice to sleep curled up between two amazing people, even if my back was arguing with it the next day. Was also not complaining about curling up with the two of them and watching Firefly Saturday night into Sunday evening.

Continuing with the bits of happy for the week, I received a call on Monday from my director notifying me that I had won a scholarship for the LPQ study materials and exam. I'm not left speechless by my job often, but I was on Monday evening. This is just the push I needed to get me back on the study/school trail. I am not complaining. I -do- have a year to complete it, but I'm aiming to complete it in the next 4 months, much like a semester in college. I'll probably start hitting the course materials hard after FurFest in a couple weeks. I sent off a thank you e-mail last night and got back a response from our department VP this morning.

Speaking of FurFest, good lords and ladies is there a lot to be excited about there. Introducing Cait and my crush to the world of furry cons, for one. I also have a playdate with a lovely green vixen at some point during the weekend. I also hear tell that I'll be working registration staff again, though I'm not quite certain when I'll be working it yet. There's also the Drum Jam that I've become infamous for.

So, yes. Times is good, if not a bit busy.