Sometimes, it sucks living inside my head. For the past week, I had been doing battle with my demons. Namely my abandonment issues. When I get stuck in a rut caused by that demon, it's hard to get me out.

I have not always been this bad. It's really since my breakdown in March that I've had this much of an issue.

Right now, I'm okay. Every now and again, I need very pointed reminders that I am wanted. Otherwise, my demons come roaring back. I ended up reading through some of my older texts with E. Those, plus thinking of his actions recently, were strong reminders to me that I am wanted.

I feel much more calm, focused, and relaxed. I feel less anxious and stressed. I'm not trapped inside the cage of my head, pacing about. Just from the reassurance that a few words and a few fingers brushing against my cheek from someone I care deeply for can provide.